Always look on the bright side of life.

Coughing endlessly for hours is a fantastic abdominal workout.

I'm not "sick" anymore, exactly, but I still have the cough. My lungs are congested and my throat itches like crazy. I burst into random fits of coughing at the most inconvenient times- the middle of the night, for example- and sometimes I cough so hard that I nearly make myself sick. I have to sit and chug bottle after bottle of ice cold water to numb my throat... it sucks, and is annoying as hell.

Enough complaining, I'm just tired. I'm not as sore as I was, because I got an adjustment yesterday, but for some reason the coughing seems to be causing a lot of pain in my left hip/SI/entire leg in general. Everything else feels better, but when the coughing fits happen... it's extremely painful in that one particular spot. Before, when I used to get a cough like this (let alone if I had pain of any kind), I'd go straight for the codeine. Now... well, if I must suffer, at least I suffer with nobility. (Okay, I'm not suffering... just a little cranky. Chin up and all that rot.)

Hypomania coming? Maybe. I haven't been sleeping well, and that tends to be a trigger. My thoughts have been racing and I have been feeling even more anxious than usual, if that's possible. Usually I'm in a better mood when I'm going hypo, though, so... I'm not sure.

Still hovering between 100 - 105 lbs. I go the entire day without eating, easily, and graze in the evenings. Not exactly healthy. I'm averaging around 1000 calories a day.

I am losing my hair. I have so many bruises.

I don't think I look thin. I think I'm just average; maybe slightly chubbier than a lot of the girls you see walking around, at least here in London. At any rate, I know that it isn't my being thin or fat that's the real issue; I'm just doing this so I can have something to obsess about, which in turn will take my mind off of the real issues. I'd much rather obsessively create things or obsessively clean or obsessively study... but no, I obsess about my fat ass instead.

I suppose it is better than obsessing over how much I would love to take some codeine right now.

Huh. This entry was supposed to be a bit more positive. I think I'll end this here for now... we can try again later, maybe after I take my Wellbutrin.

xx